life have been havoc recently.
The break up with the boyfriend.
Continuous Night life.
And many more.
Havoc since valentine's day. so which means my life have been upside down for the past 2 weeks non-stop. Going out till mornings or afternoons then home to change and bathe and out again or to work. Well. Many things happened and i felt so stupid to have fallen for his trap. But luckily i am fine if not i will bring a chopper and chop him up. bleah.
And today i met jayne for dinner at thomson for prata. He came down to find me and pass me a letter. Blah. Talked and chilled with the cockroaches in tpy till 2plus then home sweet home. Oh yea. We saw someone rather familiar who looks like Jianghan's bf. So out of curiosity, I called her and asked with no other intentions. And it seems like she have mistaken us for having some intentions. Oh well. There are always misunderstandings between us. To think i have actually thought of getting back to what we were last time and planned to call her out on my birthday. Well. Guess thats impossible now. =\
Sighs.
To you: Well. all i can say is that everything is too late. What you have said in the letter should have been said when we were together and not now. We can still be friends and maybe we can be like last time in Semester 1. But all i need is time because honestly i am having the hesitation to meet you because there is this weird feeling in me towards you now. I have never wanted to lose you as my friend. Give me some more time alright? Love always hurt if you don't realise. Its just like how you have hurt me when we are together. I cried after i read your letter and i cried after reading your blog. But love is not about sympathy and i told myself to hold my grip and not make another mistake again. The reason that we have broke is simply because we quarrelled way too much and each time it gets more and more unreasonable and i cant take it any longer. Also, i like to have my own freedom and i felt like a caged bird and honestly i like the way i am now. Free. I have actually given you many chances but things are still the same. Ten months of waiting is way too long for me, and i have patience, but there is a limit to it. So what do you understand about love now? Dont you realise its way too late realising it now? Sorry if whatever i have said here will hurt you but i just want to be honest and let you know what i am thinking of instead of lying to you. I really hope that we both can be friends again. I will try. Trust me. (:
Alright. Guess i shall end here. Took a long time to come out with this post. blah.
Ask before you conclude.
24 days to the big day (:
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