You do not know how I exactly feel.
You do not know what went through my mind when i read your blog.
Do not put words in my mouth.
I am an emotional being.
I am not a person with no memories.
I do remember those memories spent with you.
I am not that heartless.
Who knows I always tear and feel so emo after reading your blog?
Who knows memories flew back when I go to places we have been to?
Who knows how I exactly feels?
I am a person who keep things to herself.
Everything is just too late to return to our past.
Its not that I want to be heartless or treating you coldly.
There are reasons why I am doing that.
Cause I feel that being heartless is the only way that you can forget about me. Or perhaps hate me. Cause I feel that you deserve a love much better then mine. Hopefully you can find someone who have more patience then I do. Hopefully you have learn how to love, cherish your loved ones, so in future you will make use of it better and not let her suffer.
I read this quote from one of my friend's blog and I shall quote it here.
Its rather meaningful.
"You gotta -:*- hurt in order to know,*- fall in order to grow, *- lose in order to gain,COZ most of life lessons are learned in pain."It's so true. Cause I am actually experiencing it now.
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for your mopiko.
Thank you for your chocolate waffle.
Thank you for the huge surprise you gave me for my birthday.
Thank you for everything. It's too much to be listed.
I am actually happy with what I have now.
Although things may seem to be on the rocky side,
I am just trying to stay positive although I have been hurt so much this time.
I am sorry if i have made you worry so much, I know you care a lot for me.
I am sorry if i have hurt you so badly.
We can of course still be friends. But I cant guarantee it will be the same as year one.
I will try my best though. Just give me time. We can still meet up for lunch or something.
(:
[EDIT] Oh yea. Your song is good. I like it. Keep it up. (: [/EDIT]
Blah. okays. Work is hell today.
Annoying customers who keep insisting of having sofa seats, pressing for their orders.
screwed. They are testing my patience.
Whatever.
I got another quote from my friend. I shall quote it here once more.
"Love is not finding the perfect person, but finding the imperfect person perfect."and i am loving him. (:
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